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BirFday Weekend [23 Jan 2006|07:56pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Yesterday I turned 19. What a sucky age, I think 19 and 20 are just about THE worst ages of all time!! But I'm not going to complain. Its good enough becuz I had the greatest weekend! I could have sworn this birthday was just gonna be a lonely sad one but it was the complete opposite! My girls here at ASU take very good care of me and my mother spoiled me rotten!

Lets see. Here's the recap of my birthday weekend, and yes...I celebated allll weekend.

> Me, Amanda, Sara and DeAnna all went to eat at Rainforest Cafe. What a trip LOL. Its like you're sitting in a jungle. PLUS we got this super cute waiter from South Africa. Hott accent BTW. And no he wasn't black LOL. Got a sweet volcano desert, took plenty of pictures and heard the birthday song, err Rainforest Cafe style.
> After our animal shananagins. Me and the girls went to Fascinations: A HUGE SEX STORE!! OMG...Now I've been to porn stores before but this one was the Mother. It was awesome. Didn't buy anything, although I may go back to purchase those handcuffs hrmm. Well Sara bought me a badass belt buckle that says "wasted" on it and its also a bottle cap opener. I can't wait to try it out!!! But I wont devirginize it till SPRING BREAK BABY!
> Umm later that evening I got super super smashed with Sara and DeAnna. We even invented our own drink but it's a secret :) Parts of the nights are extremely fuzzy but all I know is that: we got drunk, ended up at the hookah bar, plenty of drunk dialing, met an asian kid and I passed out in Saras bed.

Saturday and Sunday:
> I spent the rest of the weekend at my moms. Met my mom's boyfriends son. Yes I'm not comfortable saying "step brother." Nonetheless, he's sweet, he's 20, he's gay.
> My mom gave me $1000!!! So I was super super shocked and extremely grateful. I went out, did A WHOLE LOTTA shopping (dont worry I didnt spend a lot) and yeah. Went out to eat a couple of times. A very spoiling weekend :)
> I came back to the dorm Sunday evening. Then the girls and I went to the hookah bar for a good while and then we ate some In & Out. Aww, there were even balloons!! :)

So it was definetely a good one. I still wish I could have celebrated WITH EVERYONE but I was still very very content. Besides, I think I'm planning a trip back home in mid Feb so I'll celebrate ONCE AGAIN back home with all my Mexicans!! Besides, I think I'm in need of a Juarez fix haha!


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Spring Break 06 [18 Jan 2006|10:17pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]


I cannot wait for spring break!!! Its going to be wild!!

Alright heres the plan:

>Amy, Erica, Lilly, Alex and Britt drive from El Paso to Tempe (to pick me up)
>We chill in Tempe for the day, go to my moms, eat of course
>They stay the night in my dorm room
>Next day...Sunday
>We drive to Puerto Penasco (only 2 hours away from Tempe)
>My mom checks us all in (we need an adult 25 yrs or older to check us in)
>BADASS RESORT ROOM!!! Check it out: http://www.sonorangetaways.com/resortlaspalmas.php
>My mom leaves us, goes back to Tempe
>Then me and the girls get MADD DIZZY and get Wa Wa Wa WASTED for FOUR NIGHTs, FIVE DAYS!!!!
>Clubs, bars, swimming pool bar, dancing, hookups, AWE...SOME room!!!
>Insane nights!!
>On Thursday, ROADTRIP back to El Paso!
>I get to spend time with family and friends for about 4 days
>Then on the last Sunday of Spring Break I fly to Tempe

OOooOOOOoOOOoohhhh KELLY CLARKSON!!!!!! What in the hell am I gonna do for the next two months?! I'm gonna gooo insane with all this exciting running through my blood!!! Ahhh!!!! *runs in circles* Damn if we can get KKK-RAZY just in Juarez, imagine how its going to be on beach? in our own condo? in MEXICO???!!!!!!


Only 4 more days till my birFDAY!!!

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New pics! [17 Jan 2006|05:43pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

If you wanna see all my crazy pictures from this winter break then go check them out on MYSPACE!!!!

Dooooo it!


And feel free to comment or message me!!!


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wa wa wa wasted! [06 Jan 2006|05:18pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Another crazy/insane/wild night to add to the list. I love being home...well scratch that, I love living next to Mexico! Why? Because we're always "wa wa wa wasted!!!"



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Heading home... [14 Dec 2005|02:03pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

So today I'm heading back home for winter break. It's still crazy to think how fast the semester has gone. I'm glad college will go by quickly though. I've got shit to do! LOL. Nah but this semester was a good one. It had a bumpy start but towards the middle I got lucky and met some great people, had a lot of fun and expierenced some crazy fun shananagins. I'm going to miss those people like crazy! As far as academics, well I think I pretty much know my grades:

2 A's
1 B
1 C
and I still don't know about one more...

Eh I know its not the gradest (get it graDEST haha) but I'm satisfied plus I didnt go all crazy with stress like some people did. That still bonkers my mind, I dunno. I had tons of fun and I did indeed learn a lot. I can't wait to see whats comming up next though. Should be pretty interesting.

I'm excited for the winter time though: Christmas, New Years, Birthdays, Tubing in Cloudcroft, Juarez, best friends and family. It just can't get any better than that. Oh wait, yes it can: GOOD HOME MADE COMIDA!!! LOL Anyways. I'm pretty much packed, well despite the pair of tennis shoes that are still on the floor and have no way of fitting my suitcases...dammit! Oh well. I'll try to update this little lonely journal sometime soon.


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Just some thoughts [11 Dec 2005|11:35pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

It is extremely extraordinary how I have perfected the art of putting off studying till the very last minute. I'll find any little distraction like going out to check my mail, picking up my room, taking more than one shower in a day and taking ten thousand power naps all so I can steer away from looking at my notes.

Is there something wrong with me? I love school but I hate having to prove it through exams. Catch my drift?

Right now I hate sitting and waiting for my phone to ring. Even something as small and pointless like that will drive me away from my studies. Oh well. I'm very nonchalant about the whole "finals" period, I'm sure you can tell.

I've decided I have no real direction in life. Everyone thinks I know what I want to do and evidentally I do KNOW who I want to become, but I don't exactly know how begin my journey into...adulthood? No thats not the word, how 'bout "my journey into...YOU SEE I CAN'T EVEN PICK THE RIGHT WORD!" I'll just continue with my days without quite knowing how I'll end up yet. Besides I think it's about time I stop making plans and let myself and my life be a bit more unpredictable. A few surprises are in dier need anyways.

And as long as my days are filled with smiles, why worry about exams? Careers? Pety things like that. As you can see I've also become the Dean of Denial haha. Oh well, the point is: I'm happy where I'm at in life. I'm happy with the people that are partaking in it and my head feels better when I'm not worrying. School, exams, jobs and all that babble will always be there. So whats the rush when everything you enjoy is already right in front of you?


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lovin life with a growling tummy... [09 Dec 2005|08:48pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Haven't updated in a good while. Well here I am. Still alive haha. I'm currently sitting on my sofa wasting valuable study time. I finished school on Tuesday and after our last class me and the girls went to Cheesecake Factory. I spent $30!!! On just MY CHECK!! And yes I only had one meal and one cheesecake. Oh well I had tons of fun. Urgh I'm gonna miss them so much when I go back home but at least I can look foward to comming back.

I only have to take two finals. One of which I'm borderline with and the other I'm smooth sailing. I dunno. I realized I'm the kind of person who won't get too bothered by academics. I know its important but I do try my hardest and I am definitily not going to go crazy over a grade. My last final is Wednesday morning and then that night I'm flying home. Back home awaits the people who love me the most so there will be nothing but smiles :)

So in the passed week I've...
>Eaten some good cheesecake
>Had a fun study session with Sara and Amanda
>Aced two classes
>Decided I love Hilary Duffs hair and clothing style haha
>Had fun with Twister in my dorm hallway with the residents
>Ate some great Chinese food
>Watched "March of the Penguins"
>Spent time with my mom
>Made a BADASS slideshow from 2005. It rapes our senior slideshow!
>Got some of Griffins pumpkin cookies in the mail :)

Lovin life with a growling tummy.


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Lil' Sundevils [02 Dec 2005|08:57pm]
Aww I only have two more days of the semester left, which means no more classes with these girls for awhile. How sad...but we took some pics so yay!

Thats me, DeAnna, Sara and Amanda
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DeAnna and I
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Amanda and Sara
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Fuck LJ Cut...deal with it!! :) [29 Nov 2005|01:50pm]
[ mood | loved ]

Alright here are some pics from Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Celebrating Thanksgiving night at Preppies is always the coolest thing to do. Anyways...enjoy!!!

Arianna and her brother JJ crossing over into Mexico!
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Lots of love and kisses!
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Cynthia looking pretty with her martini!
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Aww we make the best pictures!
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Point proven: boys are dumb. LOL JK!!! Love you buudd!!!
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Me and the girls taking some "bandera de mexico" shots. So fucking good!
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Gotta have some dancin! I love my crazy girls!
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Okay, enough of the Juarez scene. Here's Angelicas cute baby boy Xavi! Awww...
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Me and my girls at Ida's B-day dinner at Macroni Grill
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So pretty!!
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K well thats it for now. I'm heading back home in about two weeks, can you believe that?! School ends next Tuesday...I can't believe how fast it all went. But I sure am glad to see the way the semester turned out. DeAnna, Sara and Amanda are the greatest girls here and I'm glad I have them around becuz they make classes and life pretty damn interesting :) And as for my girls back home, well, there's just never a dull moment in our lives!!! <33333 xoxoxoxo COMMENT PEOPLE!! MY JOURNAL NEEDS SOME LOVIN! Heh, don't we all!?


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[28 Nov 2005|06:05pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Holy shit...going back home for the break with AWESOME!
I have tons and tons of pictures but I'll post them in a little bit. Its fucking freezing in my dorm and I need some souuup!!!!

Pictures will be up soon!!


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[23 Nov 2005|01:06pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Next stop:

El Paso, Texas!!!

Whoo hoo!! I'm going home!!!
Yay for family, turkey, friends and Juarez!!!!!!
Have a great turkey day everyone!!!


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po' folks! [21 Nov 2005|07:40pm]
[ mood | happy camper ]

Life is still good these days. This weekend was awfully uneventful but relaxing to say the least. I head back home on Wednesday and I'm bouncing off the walls becuz I can't wait to see my girls! Especially the ones I haven't seen in MONTHS! It was so sad cuz yesterday I was talking to Cynthia and we were just laughing our asses off for no reason whatsoever, haha it was great but I think we just miss one another like crazy!

Anyways, today I found out I have to make some sort of resume for myself, which sucks bucuz I dont even have a word processor program on Sparky but oh well. I went over to Kelly's for a bit to watch some Oprah. Damn I can't wait till the day I either (1) sit on her couch or (2) take over here job. She fucking rocks. Umm today is my roomates birthday, barely 18. I bought her a card. Kelly and I ate some chorizo for dinner haha. We're po' folks aight! LOL Well I'll try and update before I leave but we'll see what happens. Myspace is slowly taking over my life...but I'm pretty sure all the booze I consume this week will eventually win me over. "A League of their Own" is on AMC and I'm a happy camper.


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bored. [05 Nov 2005|09:14pm]
Hello friends do me a favor and finish this sentence for me:

Desi is _____________________


I'm bored!
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Saw II [03 Nov 2005|08:08am]
I had absoluetly NO SLEEP last night. I knew this was going to happen. Last night I thought I grew some balls, so I went to go see Saw II with Anita, Erick and Michael. BIG. MISTAKE. I mean honestly, the movie isn't scary, it is just plain DISTURBING. I thought I could handle it but noooo waaaaay. I laid in bed last night - scared to death. Urgh. I mean, I can handle the whole "not being able to sleep" thing, cuz I suffered from Insomia for years. But fuck - I dont want the nightmare thing or I dont wanna be alone right now. And it sucks, cuz I'm practically alone during most nights cuz my roomate goes out. And I mean, our dorm is fairly big so I'm even more paranoid. Fuuuccckk! Yeah I screwed myself over :( Hopefully the scary thoughts will ease away...urgh, I hate human beings.

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Halloweenie eve eve [30 Oct 2005|05:26pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Wow this weekend has definitely been a rollercoaster ride. Last night was the part when you sit in the cart and the ride is going by sooo fast that the only thing you can do is laugh. And after you laugh so much for so long - you become exhausted and want off the ride for like a minute. Then of course, after you catch your breath you jump right back into it.

Enough of my stupid rambling. I went out with those Cuellar boys and Anita! last night to some Halloween party. I made a deal with Erick that if the party was lame he owed me a flannel t-shirt, good news - I won't have to add the trucker hardware to my waredrobe. Anyways, here's some pics, enjoy:

Ride 'em Cowboy!
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Erick and Anita...great pic!
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Zorro (a big zorro) doing the keg stand.
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Another keg stand. Doesn't that look like the Carver from Nip/Tuck? I didnt wanna ask him.
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Jake. My new buddy also from El Paso.
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Those Cuellar Boys:
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Michael's costume...a teeny baseball cap. Look at that Halloween fun he's having! haha :P
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Tomarrow's Halloween. One of the best holidays ever. Plus a Roseanne marathon is going to run. Now THAT is some Halloweenie greatness. Have a good one friends!


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share a smile... [28 Oct 2005|10:33pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I think it's time that I say this out loud, well not really out loud but let it out - I'm having a hard time here. Tonight I had my breakdown #2. But this time it wasn't becuz I miss home or my family it was becuz I realized that I have no one here. I have no one to really talk to about things, or go out and have a good time or most importantly - to listen. I'm having a hard time meeting new people and truly connecting with them and it's slowly bringing me down like no other.

Tonight my frustration with people began to build up and it finally came crumbling down. I cried, a lot, out of FURT. Not for these people but for myself. Back home my cell phone was always ringing and there was always someone to go with or someone to talk to. Over here, the only time I hear my cell phone ring it's from my mom or my real best friends who just happen to be hundreds of miles away. I thought I was truly content here, I'm happy with the school but I guess I'm not fully content with myself. Who ever thought making friends would be a problem for me...for Desi. But it is. And I know it's so much more than just "going out" cuz I don't need that, I just need someone who can be there, nearby and who won't think i'm just being a BABY. I thought I had that...but I was wrong. I'm tired of depending on like only two people who I think will introduce me to others and will be there for me, but thats not the case - at all. I am not going to be that little "freshman" who needs help with everything. I know how to be independent and the minute someone thinks I NEED them, it definitely won't be the case. And...fuck, the time I did go out and make friends by myself, it completly backfired. Is it me? Am I trying too hard or not enough? I don't know what it is...but whatever it may be - it's killing me on the inside. I've hidden it for awhile but now I'm just fed up, frustrated and angry. I thought it'd be a good idea going to college on my own - all by myself, with no one - no connections. But now my it's really taking a toll upon my heart and confidence.

My other friends either go to a school where they know everyone (like HS) and others go paired up with at least one other person. It's so hard for them to relate to me I'm sure. But I dont know. Like Laura said, I know I'll be looking back on this and just laugh. But right now it's hard to even smile or think positive. How can I when I have no one here to share it with?

I mean, am I over-reacting?
I need an outlet - a new connection - someone who can be my pair (even for just a little while.)


[edit] 1 hour later...
Okay I feel a whole lot better about things. I've talked to my best friends about the problem and they've assured me that I'm doing the right thing. I've let out a lot of steam and I've realized what I truly want now. In order to gain some you must lose some. I meant every word and now I have plans with my friend Deanna on Sunday. This is Desi, and things will always be looking up. No more putting up with this negativity and mess. I AM SOOOO DONE WITH IT :)
*nice long exhale*

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some candy... [26 Oct 2005|09:23pm]
[ mood | pensive ]

Hey friends!!!

What should I be for Halloween???!!!
I need a costume idea as soon as possible!!!
Please help...
Any suggestions???
I'll give you some candy....


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Just what i needed... [24 Oct 2005|02:06pm]
[ mood | content ]

Wow this weekend was just what I needed. I went home for four days and it was absolutly perfect. So here's what happened...

Flew in and hung out with the family for a bit. Went to sonic with Vicky, saw Roy and Lorenzo. Afterwards I wanted to go party...but everyone was being party poopers cuz they had school the next day. You nerds. So I convinced Erica, Arianna, Sergio, Denise and JJ to go with me. We hit up the Derby, I'm pretty sure I still have the rubbing alcohol running throuh my blood LOL. Gross place but it was GREAT! And I might have done something stupid, but I don't remember it and I'm sticking to it. Erica & I were drunk! We had a scary encounter with a crackhead in the driveway of Jack in the Box. Got into a car with some boys (dont ask)...got home around 3:30?

Went to Irvin to visit everyone. Some comments? I look great, i've had a good change, I'm calmer, more melo. So it was all great. I realized that I don't miss high school and that I'm glad I left El Paso. Went to go eat some chinese with Denise, Cecy, and Vicky. Got home and spent time with my grandpa. Around 9:30 headed over to the IHS game - saw some good people. Then a bunch of us headed over to Juarez. Had a great time at Preppies, although, the night did get pretty odd and annoying as it progressed. Got pulled over - that sucked, but it could have been worse. Louie was my hero. Got home around 4:30am.

Spent the morning at home. Made my grandpa lunch. Did tons of errands for the days tailgate party. Drank at the tailgate - good people. I miss Ida and Denise sooo much :( Went to the UTEP game, had some fun, did some counseling :P and went back to the tailgate spot till about 12:30.

Woke up to the sound of family voices and to the smell of Menudo. Ate and visited with la familia. Denise and Ida came over for a bit. Said my goodbyes and headed towards the airport.

So all in all, after I spent almost $200, the weekend never had a dull moment. I got to see everyone I wanted to. Plus I drank most of the time! haha. I miss everyone but there's only a handful that I'd like to pack up with me. People are different, in good & bad ways...I think I've really grown up since coming to ASU, I'm glad I have this kind of experience to share with everyone.


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Dear Journal, [19 Oct 2005|12:09am]
[ mood | content ]

I am fully content.
Just some thoughts...
I just downloaded some music by Brand New. It is so enlightening to hear songs from them once again. Whenever I hear one of their tunes it always makes me want to go out and drive in the rain - past sunset. Or be sitting in the passanger seat while someone that I love and who loves me back is driving, while its raining - past sunset. Its euphoria. It's the kind of musical moment that makes me wonder about life and its on-going activities and how I need to try harder to be so active among them.

Today I was told the most wonderful things by a friend, for no real reason. It made me smile. It's so nice to be hit back with the same words I'm constantly telling other people. Its such a rush. It's always lovely to hear someone tell you how great they think you are. We tend to only let friends how we feel about them with enscriptions hidden inside of a yearbook or a goodbye or a last minute - last day together conversation. We all do it. We all hide, avoid and idealistically think it's not okay to tell someone how you feel right when you're feeling it.

Love, live, smile, hope, dream, hug, kiss and wish

It turns ordinary people into extrodinary human beings.
And you can quote me on that...


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